Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possiblity into flames of achievement. - Golda Meir
February! New year... new month... new me? Maybe.
As I do each year leading up to my birthday, I get a little retrospective, a little introspective trying to get perspective (See what I did there?) about... me. I reflect on where the year has taken me, how I reacted to it and what, if anything, I could have done to make it different for the better or even the worse. Some situations and circumstances I remember were unavoidable and my attitude towards them was understandable and acceptable but really, when I reflect on the whole... the person I am, I almost always find myself lacking. It isn't that I go looking for the negative per se, but there is plenty in my life that could be tweaked, improved upon, toned up and sometimes I can get really bogged down with it. I know I have a great life. I have this amazing, little family that brings me such pride and joy. I am blessed beyond anything I really deserve but sometimes I lose where I (that "me, myself and" character) fit into it. I'm someone's daughter, sister, friend, wife, and mother but who am I? What parts of me have stayed consistent throughout my childhood, adolescence, and adult years? How has me being me helped piece together this puzzle called my life? Given a moment of clarity, I recognize that I'm not exactly repulsive and it's alright for me to acknowledge my good qualities, my talents, my (Ahem!) shortcomings, my contributions and to give credit where credit is due, so to speak. I don't often do that. Not to myself, anyway. So... (Here it comes.) with that in mind and the ol' calendar pointing the way to February 19th, the day that will forever live in "infancy", namely mine, (Heh, Heh!) I have decided to take the 28 days of this month to focus on the renewing, refreshing, and appreciation of yours truly. Instead of making lists of things that I have to change about myself which I have done many, MANY times, I will embrace the good, bad, ugly (Shudder) that is CHER... me, not Sonny's. (The jokes... oh my sides!)
February! New year... new month... new me? Maybe. Hopefully.
I shall document this time through this blog. However, just saying that feels so forced. I am not a blogger. (Just see how inconsistently I have kept this space up. Ugh!) I feel stress just thinking about being a blogger. Bloggers are writers. Bloggers feel deeply for writing. I don't. I'm a much better... "blerber". (Not to be confused with Bieber.) So... to take the pressure off, it shall be documented here on this "blerb". (I feel better already.) It shall be documented because, well, it will help with that pesky "spective" thing I do each year and who knows, it may be interesting to someone out there in "
February! New year... new month... new me? Maybe. Hopefully. YES!
Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things. - Phillippians 4:8
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BAM! This right here! Yes!
Your birthday is in May. It's been in May since 1994.
Aside from your family, I am your number one fan...but not in a creepy Kathy Bates/"Misery" kind of way. So, cheers to you (or should I ammend that to "chers" to you?)! To your love of your faith and your family. And to the astounding immensity of your talents.
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