Cramming 4 Days Into One Honest Blerb

*I've said it many times and yet, evidently I don't listen... I am NOT a blogger!  I cannot be counted on to get them out in a timely manner.  It takes so much thought for me, which seems silly to say in light of my current postings.  My "tongue in cheek" blog page name is not necessarily true.  I mean, I guess you could say that what's posted  here are just "splashes" of my thoughts but I give too much planning (errr...) to these writings for them to be true "stream of consciousness".  Alas, I shall complete the month (if for only the three people that actually read them.)

In any case...  (Inhale.)

February 8th, 9th, 10th & 11th:

Over the past four days I've had a real "come to Jesus" meeting with myself.  Despite that lovely "I'm Wonder Woman, hear me roar" blog from several days ago (insert rolling eyes here), I truly must be honest and admit that I have once again (and I mean AGAIN *cue echo) let myself lose sight of my main goal which is to ENJOY my family and my activities and not spread myself so thin that I feel like burn out is pending.  I mean, I can multi-task and do it all the time (most mothers do anyway), but really... I need my head examined for all that I have put on my plate lately.  Now, some of it really is beyond my control in that I didn't know what kind of time pressure and whackadoo schedule I was gonna be under when I first took it on, but in retrospect, I could have (should have) thought it out better and not pushed myself into so much.  Since before Christmas, we have been running on super speed from one activity, show, event, etc.  Throw in our regular life with the 6 of us plus Lewie's surgery in January and and it's a circus side show for sure.  Although I feel like I'm doing an alright job keeping us all in check and making sure that we are connecting as a family everyday, I am not taking care of myself and I realize that a very bad attitude (cue scary music) is so close to the surface for me and it's because I am tired and stretched out more than that Armstrong dude from the 70's.  Grrr!

So...

What can I do about it?  Well, there is not too much I can do at this point to change our over-scheduled calendar.  I mean, I have commitments, contracts... and I will fulfill them.  However, I have thought a lot about trying to keep myself in check on thinking I (or even "we") need to be a part of everything that is available to us.  Of course we have interests, talents, skills, etc. that we want to use and nurture but, especially for me as the "lady of the manor", I've gotta find a good balance so that the things I need to take care of don't fall behind because the things I want to do keep me from them.  Sometimes saying 'no' is the biggest 'yes' I can give myself and my family.  I know, too, that often my decisions are based on my own validity issues (Oh geez, that's a whole 'nother blog in itself).   I've gotta face that. (Aww, pa-tooey!) Anyway, there are certainly changes that need to happen on this front, as much as I hate to admit it.  However... (bucking up)... it's good.  It's needed.  It's what will ultimately save me from an inevitable stumble.


There.... honest. blerbing. (Exhale.)